STILL NO NEWS ON THE FORENSIC AUDIT HERE’S MY THOUGHT WHILE WAITING

I write because I hope to give people language for their experiences, their memories, their feelings. Three novels later, I write the blog, Mainstreetrockymount.com. to help people see the painting of Rocky Mount, differently, as it hangs on the wall.
I have on my shelves books about writing. I have taken workshops, gone on retreats, filled notebooks and underlined passages. Like many writers, I have my saints, Pat Conroy, Ian McEwan, Rosamunde Pilcher, Henry Kissinger, David Halberstam.
I admire their command of language, their authority of voice, the way clarity seems inevitable in their hands. I wished I possessed that kind of magic.
I got some help with this wish. After reading a series written about the saints, I said to a friend, “I could never be like this.” She answered, wisely, “God already has a St. Francis. What He wants is a Saint Stepheny.”
That line stayed with me because and it clarified how I try and think about my writing today. The task is not imitation. It is fidelity, to one’s own voice, one’s own place, one’s own responsibilities.
So what readers have here is not Pat Conroy, but a devoted observer learning as she goes, and remembering a garden writing seminar I attended when they asked the question; how many ways can you write about the color green?
How many times can I write about Rocky Mount’s ‘troubles’ with new insight? As much as I love the research, the architecture, the businesses, and the people whose stories give Main Street its heartbeat, I find myself continually washed up on the steps of the civic disruption Rocky Mount is experiencing, again.
I admit that I am a political junkie who reads political books, attends a City Council meeting here and there, yet is running out of ways to talk about “green” – the dysfunction that continues to plague the City.

My family moved to Rocky Mount in 1960 when North Carolina Wesleyan opened. Dad was a college professor. We had lived in a small college community in northern Illinois before we move to Durham and Duke University. Dad preferred the small college environment thus the opportunity came in Rocky Mount.
I complete high school here and went to Wesleyan. After Wesleyan I worked at CT&T. For sixteen years I enjoyed living in the wonderful Rocky Mount community, only leaving for work related reasons.
The Rocky Mount I knew for those sixteen year appeared to be a vibrant community. They appeared to handle the racial issues well. The consolidation of the segregated high schools appeared to go well. But since I no longer lived here i knew nothing about city politics.
I think it was sometime in the 1990s when I noticed a change in the city, especially the down town area. I always like going downtown. When I walked from the Edgecombe side of the track to Senior High on the Nash side, I walked through the middle, often stopping in the afternoon a various businesses.
So what happened? Offspring of influential people moved away. Focus shifted to malls. The railroad was always an impediment. Did festering class tensions erupt? Since I only visited two or three times a year I didn’t notice the gradual decline.
One thing I learned at work and through various management courses is that critical analysis is the first step in solving problems. Answer the question, “How did we get here.” before trying to create a solution. It has been said, those who fail to understand history are doomed to repeat it. You can manage or fix what you don’t know or understand.
Good Luck, and don’t give up.
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I appreciate your memories, since I did not grow up here. You can’t fix Rocky Mount’s ‘troubles’ as things stand. I think the citizens of Rocky Mount know what needs to be done, can name culprits, but ‘nothin gonna change’ until we get the rascals out of here. I hope you will keep up with things here on the blog.
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I vote but am discouraged at mistakes being made and choices of seemingly inadequate city managers. However, past and current problems may deter better candidates from applying. Incumbents have advantages that may discourage challengers, and challengers can’t seem to overcome voters’ familiarity with incumbents even if they’re questionable. An underlying problem is a lack of interest in voting, which the state’s lack of support for public education may contribute to. An educated citizenry is more apt to concern themselves about governance. Perhaps the billing and finance problems will motivate more people to work for change. It might make Rocky Mount better.
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One thing I am sure of is we have to change the way we vote. The entire city should vote for all councilmen or women.Thank you for leaving your comment and joining me on my Main Street Bench. Come back anytime. Stepheny
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